I basically abandoned this blog. It wasn’t a conscious decision; it just happened day by day. I work 9 hours a day plus 2 commute hours, plus the extra hour it takes me to get ready to go to the office. When I arrive home I’m almost totally depleted of will and energy, and little by little I lost the routine of writing on my computer.

I will try to go back to what used to make me happy: making music and playing with this blog. I remember some years ago I really saw myself as a full-stack creative. Someone who plays with all modern expression tools, including the most avant-garde of them. Now I think of myself as just another office worker.

I really like my job. I’m really good at it and I’m respected by my colleagues, but I, and probably everybody else, know that I can do much more than what my job requires. I’ve applied for another position at my current company and the manager who interviewed me was confused as to why I was still at their company and not somewhere else. The truth is, my current company pays enough to pay the bills, but maybe this was a sign to be more ambitious.

Fast food hamburgers nowadays are a total joke. They are two-bite size with something that resembles the ingredients, but it’s just a representation, and not in really nutritious proportions. What a joke of modernity we have allowed to exist.

So there was a little bug in my blog, it didn’t really affected me much but I knew about it. It took me some weeks to care enough for me to report it in a Github issue, then it stayed in the open issue queue for 3 weeks, I then decided I would fix it myself, it took me some days to decide and implement the fix. Took some other days for the pull request to be accepted and merged. In between this time I abandoned my blog and writing all together. Congratulations to me, I got paralyzed by my perfectionist stupidity.